Blackout

Build then destroy

Why have I always built to destroy,
I seem to have done it since I was a boy.
Labours of love, I have passionately built,
Only to smash them, and wallow in guilt.

Build then destroy,
Build then destroy,

Why have I done this since I was a boy?

Work t’wards my goals, achieve them with ease,
Bask in the glory, til I need to please,
The destructor inside me, that tears me apart,
Controlling my mind, and breaking my heart.

Build then destroy,
Build then destroy,

Oh, why do I only get moments of joy?

I have many times reached stages in life,
Where I’ve had wonderful years free from strife.
But while I bask in the peace stability brings,
The destroyer lies waiting, to undo the strings.

Build then destroy,
Build then destroy,

Stability in life, I will never enjoy.

I have loved many times, it’s easy to do,
And shared my life, with a special few,
Until it seems, my happiness feels sound,
The destroyer starts lurking, preparing the ground.

Build then destroy,
Build then destroy,

He treats my life like a cheap little toy.

The destroyer is working on me again now,
But as hard as I fight, I just seem to bow,
To the relentless pressure, he grinds me to dust,
He seeks to destroy me, with evil black lust.

Build then destroy,
Build then destroy,

How can I beat him, what can I employ?

I know my heart’s full of compassion and care,
And I love to be loved, and I’m willing to share,
All the joy that I feel when I’m free of this beast,
But it’s on my loved ones hearts that this animal feasts.

Build then destroy,
Build then destroy,

I have just wanted love since I was a boy.

So strangers beware, as I enter your beat,
That you don’t offer to me, a comfortable seat.
For if I stay for a while and capture your trust,
Your hearts may be prey, for my destroyer’s black lust.